What's my definition of love.
Yeah, includes the usual shit, if he's always on your mind, you forgive him despite whatever lousy things he'd done. That goes without saying, i guess.
Mine's pretty simple, definition of love means, i need you hence i love you. There's a difference between i love you cause i need you. Take some time to think abt it & you'll get what i mean. Well, for everyone i guess there's someone who's special& someone who's important. But for important, there can only be one. Cause, special means that person would always have a space in your mind cause of the memories you've had, friends, ex-lovers. You could live without it if there's no choice. But for important, it would mean, you cant do without that person, which is why he/she is important. This explains why there only can be one. It goes without saying that family is included for some, dont have to remind me.

I admit, i always believed that everyone would leave no matter what, so i dont treat relationships between people seriously. Be it friendship, kinship or what. I used to love because i am loved, i dont have to love that person. I guess i started out my most recent r/s this way too. And i guess i wanted to forget everything that time and wanted to start anew, yeah, that's what he's thinking too. Which is why we got tgt rather quickly, without knowing each other that well. Do i regret it? I guess alittle. Cause if i had taken the time to know each other& let the feelings grow, i probably wont go through all that shit for the first few months. And let it leave a fear in my mind. Confusing me from time to time. Yes, the good times are there, too good till it makes me lose grasp of reality at times. Like, can i actually be this happy. Guessed im used to not bothering abt anything made me emotionally numb. From young, i was always getting laughed at, so i always tell myself not to bother and be emotionless. So i guess, i find it hard to express my feelings. I surpress my laughter when i really wanna laugh, my disappointment and all that.

Guess me and him are really 2diff beings. Which is why we fit tgt like he's the last piece to my puzzle. Okayzxc, i have no idea what to update so im posting random stuffs that comes through my mind. Don't read if its wordy. KTHXBYE.